Have you ever heard this song, ‘It’s Gonna Be Me’ by N’Sync?
This is an old song, which I use to hear when I’m 12 years old.
This songs remind me of someone, my first love.
I know it sounds funny, falling in love at the age of 12. But I don’t see anything wrong.
I’ll call him PJ here. He is famous among girls, and a lot of girls like him, including me.
He looks handsome, and tall, and funny. He was my classmate.
Being the very brave girl, I wrote him a letter and confess, and put it in his mailbox.(He lives near my house.) He saw the letter, and get very angry, and I don’t know why.
I dare not step into the class the next day, because he seems real angry.
I remember him saying, ‘Why there is so many people she don’t like, wanna like me.’
After this incident, I did not talk to him anymore.
Until one day, he call my house phone, and we started talking again.
We chat on the phone quite a lot, and after that, we were together.
I still remember that most of the time when he calls me, I’ll be mopping my floor.
One of my hand holding the mop, and the another holding the phone, stop the mopping, sit on the sofa, and chat. I really did had a great time.
Then there is one day, he sang me a song, I don’t know what is the name, but I guess is ‘Stand by me’. Darling, darling, stand—by me, oh… stand, by me.. It melts my heart.
But, because there are so many girls who like him, and he is so handsome, — he likes another girl.
The first heartbreak, which really really breaks my heart. And the one he likes will always be my good friends. I know that he likes this friend of mine (Vivien, is you la), which his best friend likes her too. And out of jealousy, I tell his best friend, and because of this, their friendship ends. [Feel so guilty at that time.]
Whats worst is that later on, he fall in love with my best friend.
I am indeed jealous, but I never get angry of her, because she is my best friend.
I just get angry of him. I wrote him quite a number of letters, and he pass all of them to my best friend. I was like, what the hell. And lastly, I tear all of them and throw to rubbish bin.
After that I have to shift to another school, and here ends our story.
Things I have done for him:
-Cries a lot for him. I hide in the toilet and cry, because I am shifting and I cant see him anymore.
-I use to drink orange Vitagen, but I change to purple Vitagen, because he loves to drink purple Vitagen. (and i actually dislike purple Vitagen a lot). Whenever there is Vitagen, I’ll take the purple one, although I hate it a lot.
I don’t think I will actually forget him, not that I still love him of course, but is because this is a sweet memory for me.
Gosh, we did not even hold hands.
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People use to say this to teens who are in love, ‘Go and get a life and study hard, don’t always think about all the love thingy’.
Loving someone means they don’t have a life and they should get a life? Sounds ridiculous to me.
Loving someone is no right or wrong. We use to love someone since we are small.
We love our daddy and mummy, our teachers and friends.
Children have their own kind of love, which I think is far more better than adult’s love.
Children’s love don’t involve money and sex, it is pure love.
Whatever, I just dislike people who say that kids cant love. Total crap.
yes, i’m total crap. are you happy now? hahaha
when you are young, you have a tendecy to confuse a lot of things, seriously ;)
this entry reminds me of something dear to me.
i was 5. she was a neighbour. we went to the kindergarden together.
teachers always tease us because we were close as we go and return from school together. i knew i liked her although i always hid it, i even retaliate strongly when we were teased. i dont know if she does, but she never deny or argue back when we were tease by friends. i remember my heart was broken that evening when my dad came back telling me we’ve got a new house in subang jaya (i was living in old klang road then).
i said goodbye to her in a month later, never had the guts to ask her for her contact. something i regret til today. how i wish i had. i wish i could make use of the internet to get in touch back with her. but i have no single clue how she looks like by now and where to begin.
ps: cherish ur sweet 12 love.
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firewire: I know things will get confuse sometimes, but…
I don’t know what I wanna say already..
ad: ow, so sweet, and sad..
maybe going back to old klang road and find her??
This remiind my first love. Not very young lah at tat time, bout 7 years old. I study at SK at tat time and i same class wif her. Wen u c her, i got feeling towards her. From tat moment, i knw i love her but i dun dare to confess to her as at tat time, v so young. So, i wait wen i big enough. In primary school, v always been in same class. Even wen v reach Form 1, v also same class. But unfortunately, i being force to transfer to next school by my mum. At tat time, i very down ani cry the whole night as i ll nv c her again although only next school only. But i din confess to her…..
This ‘lanjut’ till after SPM. I still love her but dun hav tat gut. OK, after SPM i think it’s time now but she gone to NS. So, i wait till she come back but she go to INTEC. I wait till her birthday then i confess. I quickly go to Petaling Street to buy her favourite blue flower, write a letter and send to her house. In the letter, i confess to her then the next day, i sms her ask how she feel. The ans she gv me is SOLI!!! Her heart belong to other guy aledi.
AI…..
moneybin: Cheer up, don’t be sad.. Good luck to you..
err. that place sudah roboh edi lol. become some commercial place apparently. but yea. i think that’d be something that follow me for the rest of my life
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omg. you mentioned me and is that cindy..
gosh, you are reminding me so much of our “days”.
i dont remember who is his best friend? josh? HAHAHA.
and hey, i remembered about the vitagen thingy! hahaha.
and this guy, he really likes to sing to girls huh!
Yup Cindy.. Not Joshua la, is Yi Kye, i don’t know whether I spell his name correctly or not.. Haha, I don’t think I cant forget each and everyone of you all..
i think this is my first time reading your blog and i don’t usually read blogs but since this has got something to with me so i read la(vivien told me) haha. its funny you know you said its a sweet memory to you. for me i totally regret it. he is such a player (sorry la pj) but its a truth. anyway it brought back some memories to me also. some things i almost forgot. hehe
we were 12 so naive….and cute! haha
Cindy: Haha, it is really a sweet memory la.. I know he is a player, i guess is because too many girls like him. Haha..
Hey there old fren!!! I remembered dat incident!!! Wad a memory…. It seems like it just happened yesterday… Well, i dunno y but i remembered it clearly haha XD . Actually dat time i tried 2 help u out… err nvm 4get it…. lol..
KY: Omg, you can remember this?? Mind to explain how you want to help?
I am so curious.. please…..