Why the hell am I being moody over such things? Such stupid things. Why am I being so selfish here?
What is wrong with me? I don’t wanna be selfish, I don’t.
Is it because somehow this means something to me?
Is it because I am so looking forward to it and when things changed, I get moody?

I know, it is. I don’t like it this way.
Shit, its because I’ve forgotten about it. I was too excited.
I should expect the opposite, expect shit things to happen. I forgot, damn it.

I’m not happy. I feel like staying in bed for the whole day and not going out to shop or whatever it is anymore.
I don’t wanna be moody but I cant help. Maybe I’ll get better when I woke up from bed later.
But now, everything seems so sucky. Sucks max.
I’m sorry, I am selfish.