Short Note: I just cant stop buying one thing. Magazine. My house is full of magazines and I cant live without these babies. Helps to kill my boredom.

Grrr, not happy.
You know what sucks? Disappointment sucks!
Disappointment can really bring down my mood; down into the drain. Wth..

Everyone deals with disappointment. Yes, we surely do, but what kind of disappointment?
Let’s say, you did not promise me on a particular thing and all you say is just a word, maybe.
I know I shouldn’t expect you to do it but somehow I still expect and I get all disappointed when it did not turn out the way I expected. I am always, always like this since ages ago.
Not a good habit I know and lucky someone just put some sense into me not long ago.
I now will try very hard not to expect anything if it is not confirm. I will keep reminding myself not to expect or expect the worse. Keep reminding and keep reminding, and it somehow does really work.

But what about this? You promise me on something and you cant do what you promise.
When you promise me or confirm me with something, I definitely will expect things to turn out the way we agree. Right? Or no?
This will then be a major, super major disappointment when you couldn’t do it. Total turn off I must say.
I like things to go according to plans and that is why I always ask for confirmation. And once you confirm me, things shall go accordingly. And also that is why I give you time to confirm, I give you time to think and plan.
Its either you tell me you are not confirm and I won’t expect anything or you tell me you are confirm and I will expect things to turn out a certain way.
If you cant do it, do not promise me. Can?
I rather you telling me not confirm then to disappoint me this way.
I keep using the word ‘you’ here but I am pointing at no one in particular. Its just that quite a number of my friends are like this. Sigh, maybe I shouldn’t plan so much.
I shall start to learn the tak apa apa attitude, the attitude that most of the Malaysian have.

And to whoever it may concern, it is better for you to tell us that we will not have any incentive than giving us such low incentive because we really do feel humiliated.
No, its not even about low incentive now. You people want us to sell 50 units per person for a month and giving us what? Slightly above Rm100 for that?
I think you people are out of your mind. Yes, our basic is indeed quite high and maybe it sounds normal to have lower incentive.
But what I’m trying to stress here is that it is better telling us we won’t be getting any incentive from the start than doing all this shit.

Excuse me sir or madam or whoever it is, do you think we can sell 50 units per person every month? Do you even think it is a fair thing to arrange it this way? First thing, you people put us in different location. Some teams are place at shopping malls that have crowds whereas some teams are place at other places that basically have very very few people. Fair?
Second thing, 50 units per person is ridiculous. Read my word, I say RIDICULOUS!
50 units per team is already a problem and now 50 units per person? Are you trying to make me laugh here?

Your product is good, sure thing. But excuse me, your coverage area sir. How many percent of Malaysia you guys already covered? 10%? 15%? Oh boy, I’m not sure about that.
But heck, with such little coverage area, you expect 50 units?
Tell me now, who can do that? I will pay that guy another Rm100. Come on, just tell me who can sell 50 units in a month?

Seriously, I am not sure whether its the company itself who is giving such low incentive or the event company. I’ve got no idea but I really do want to know. Boss, now let me tell you; you are really expecting too much. IF you cover every single corner in Malaysia, I can definitely sell 50 units. Do you know how sucks it is? 8 out of 10 customers are staying in areas that do not have coverage. Fuck that, you tell me now how do I get 50 units.

I don’t even wanna bloody care about that god damn tiny weeny incentive. Seriously, this is humiliating. Makes me feel as if you people are giving money to us beggars. Serious shit. Yes yes yes, I don’t wanna care bout the stupid incentive already. I’ll just get my basic and that is it. Full stop.

But another thing. Again, I’m not sure if its the big company or the event company but heck, it still sucks. Do you people have PR department in your company? Or whatever shit that relates to PR. Or some common sense? Can you people be a little bit more systematic?
Yes, you are the boss. I know that. But does that mean you can change our timing or whatever it is and letting us know last minute. We are your promoters, not 24/7 stand by maid.
You want to make changes, let us know earlier. Telling me at 10pm that I have to change shift tomorrow is not the way.

You people are making us, your promoters life miserable. Annoys me so much. And always not giving us a reason for changes. I want to know, so can you just tell me the reason?
Event company with such poor management skill or worse still, is it the big company? For goodness sake, we promoters are your front line. The first person that customers get close to is us, the promoters. If you people make our life miserable, do you think we can work properly? I’m not sure bout others but I definitely cant.

I’ve saw some cases already. Boss who treats promoters good, promoters will work hard for you. Boss who treats promoters like shit, promoters will work shit for you. Fair and square.
Just like when I work for Maxis last year, they give me good commission and I work hard for them and myself. When I work hard, the boss wants to keep me. Its a circle thing, can you see it?

With that so call incentive, it really cut down my motivation. If you don’t care about the incentive, I will not care too.
Alright, enough of my ranting. This is my opinion, my thinking. You don’t like it, you can fuck off.
Sorry, its the time of the month again, I get piss off really easily.

I’m sleepy and I’m off to bed. ZzzZZzzzzZZZZ