Short Note: Anyone want to help me paint my room? Darlings?

November is gone and December is here.
20 days more to Christmas and the year will end very very soon.
Another year again. Time is moving so fast, without me even realizing it.
I’m not sure if this year’s Christmas will be same as the last one but I hope not.

Am I looking forward to this year’s Christmas?
I’m not very sure myself. One minute yes, the next minute no.
Oh, don’t bother. I am forever like this.

The Dj beside me just played a nice song. He keeps playing Christmas songs today.
Its ‘Last Christmas’ by Ashley Tisdale and this is the first time me listening to it.
I really like this song and I hope you guys like it too.

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I’ll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I’ll give it to someone
I’ll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance, but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby, do you recognize me?
Well it’s been a year, it doesn’t surprise me
Happy Christmas

I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying “I love you”, I meant it
Now I know what a fool I’ve been
But if you kissed me now, I know you’d fool me again

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I’ll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I’ll give it to someone special
Special
Yea yea

A crowded room, friends with tired eyes
I’m hiding from you, and your soul of ice
I thought you were someone to rely on
Me, I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A friend to discover with a fire in her heart
A man under cover but you tore me apart
Now I’ve found a real love, you’ll never fool me again

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I’ll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I’ll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I’ll give it to someone special

I’ll give it to someone special

I’m not feeling very well for the past 2 days. I’ve got an upset stomach, headache, and my nose went bleeding last night when I was pig-ing sleeping. I really don’t know what is wrong with me, especially my nose. The bridge of my nose gets cold really easily and once it gets cold, I will get headache. This is bad. I know I’m lacking of sleep lately, and also lacking of water. I drink so little water, it ain’t doing any good to my body. Sigh… Maybe soon I’ll die from god knows what sickness.

I’m going out tonight with my darlings for some window shopping, or maybe a real shopping.
I try not to be happy because I really dislike the feeling of disappointment.
No thank you, I don’t want to go through the feeling of disappointment again and again. It is killing me.
I’ll just make my feelings stay neutral. Even if I’m happy, I will try not to.
Staying neutral is the way.

Don’t be happy, because if you are not happy you won’t be sad.
Er……………. never mind. My brain is a bit out of the place now.

See you darlings tonight. <3