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Fuck my retarded neighbour

Warning: Lots of fuck inside because I am super piss.

You might want to read this first before start reading this post.
I went back home after my class and I just wanted to start eating my dinner.
I heard my dog keeps on barking, I went and have a look.
And I saw my fucking retarded neighbor disturbing my dog by pouring water on my dog.
I thought he will stop after once or twice, but no.
He is so fucking crazy, he keeps smiling and disturbing my dog.
I get so piss off I eventually asked him to stop and asked him why the hell he do that.
He say my dog barked at him while he is washing his stuff, which I actually don’t think my dog will bark up him because of this.
If even my dog did bark at him, which has no prove, he should not pour water on my dog for so many times, till my dog is so wet.
He keep pouring even though I demand him to stop, and I couldn’t take it anymore, I went outside.
And you guys know what that fucking hell son of a bitch do?? He fucking pour water on ME!!!! And I am all wet, fuck him.
Man, I get so damn piss off, I take the water hose and shot him with water, and he did the same to me. Which makes me even wet and mad.
For goodness sake, his stupid mother even help him.
I tell you all ah, this psycho guy is really crazy and out of mind.
Whats next? We started quarreling. I cant bear with him anymore.
He stare at us, talk to us, well, I am not fine with that but I just let him be.
But why the hell he wanna disturb my dog? Then when will he start disturbing my family? He keeps saying, go to report police, he is not scared of it.
And I don’t know what is wrong with his brain, he says my mom is crazy for more than 10 years. Fuck him, wanna talk bout my mom somemore. He is the fucking one who is crazy for all this while.

When my dad is here, he never dare to do this kinda stuff. HE NEVER DARE.
But when dad is gone, he start doing this to my family.
Why fucking pick on us? Wanna bully us like that because dad is not here?
Fuck him, he dared me to make a police report.

And I fucking make the first police report in my life today.
I hope he die and burn in hell or at least, my dad will find him at night and scare him till he masuk Tanjung Rambutan.

That morning..

I remember waking up at seven something and I was confused.
Why mom don’t wake me and my brother up, we were suppose to go to school.
We changed and walked down stairs.
Something is wrong, the furnitures weren’t there.
There is relatives in my house and their face expression is weird.
I knew something is wrong. I knew it.
I asked, but nobody answer me.
I asked again, and my grandmother told me something that will changed my life forever.
My dad died.
Not pass away, but died.
Too harsh for me, and I couldn’t take it till this very second.

Bad cough

I was having a bad cough for a lot of days. And I mean a real bad one.
Especially in the middle of the night, I keep on coughing and it is a bit out of control.
I cough till my abdomen and chest is pain, stomach fill with air, and I feel like vomiting.
This is the first time ever I cough this badly.
Couldn’t take it anymore and went to see a doctor this afternoon.
Ate the medicine, but seems the same to me, maybe it will feel better after I ate a couple of times more.
Really hope that I will eventually get better, because this somehow kills me.

And I have tons of loads of blahs of assignment to do. So many that I get so irritated by them. Just make me feels so stress. I am not sure whether I have that much time to blog. but I’ll try. I just get so fed up with those assignment.

I want to sleep. Bye..

Lost

I don’t know where to start.
It seems like there is a lot I want to say, and yet I don’t know what I actually want to say.
I am feeling a little lost here..

Talk about college?
Nothing much to talk about. I have fun studying mass communication and I like it, really.
But I am attending class alone, I am just to shy to make friends. I guess I rather be alone.

Whats next?
I am having a cough. Thanks to Mr. Shaun, who give me all his bacteria.

Somemore?
Love?
All I can say is I don’t know. It looks good and fine but I am afraid.

I don’t know what is all this about, I just want to talk about something but I don’t know what I wanna talk about. I don’t know what kind of feeling is this, I feel a bit lost.

I want someone to be beside me now.

And, when is Father’s Day?