It is so hard for me to express my feeling. Am I too demanding or is he giving me too little. All I ever want is only love and care from him. I’ve always been dreaming for a perfect guy, or is there no such thing as a perfect guy? Since small, to me Love is an important thing. My other half will be the most important person in my life (since dad is gone). Maybe one of the reasons is that dad is not here anymore to take care of me and mom don’t care about me either. No one will ever love and take care of me, other than my other half, or at least I think so. I used to watch fairy tales when I was a little girl and watch love movies when I grew older, and I even read love stories. You can see, love is a big part in my life. I don’t think I can live without it, really.
Perhaps all these years of love stories and fairy tales turn me into who I am today.

I want my guy to make me feel happy, make me feel special, make me the one he love most, and make me feel the romance in the relationship. However, he fail to do so.
So I thought, maybe I’m too naive and there is no such guy in this world.
But boy I was so wrong, I did saw some really nice guy who treat their girlfriend so well and I really envy them a lot. The word, ‘I don’t know how’ is how he escape from all these which he might think it is useless to do.

I stick to him, I cling to him, maybe thats why he don’t appreciate me. But when I don’t care about him so that he will appreciate me more, he might not like it because I am not a good girlfriend anymore. He is leaving very soon but I don’t see that he really wanna spent time with me. I don’t see that he will miss me, I don’t see that he loves me so much that he is sad to leave me, I don’t see that he will worry about me when I’m here alone without me, I see nothing.
Maybe he will find a girl there, a girl who is so sweet, so cute, with no temper and do and listen everything he says. I’m not sure, most guys are like that.
Even if I don’t show temper and listen to what he says and act like a dumb girl, I still don’t think the way he treat me will every change.

Its been 3 years and all this while I wish demand for surprises. Things get so worse till I have to demand for it, and even when I do, there is no surprises. Maybe 3 surprises in 3 years.
I sound so damn cheap to demand for surprises. I don’t think I need it anymore, since it don’t come from his heart anyway. I know I might sound clingy and demanding to some of you, but which girl who doesn’t want true love from their partner?

Yah, whatever fuck. You are leaving and you always don’t care.
And as always, saying that I don’t wanna care for you anymore in my heart but still I do.
Am I too stupid to love you are what.
It hurts so much sometimes that I feel like dying.

Hehehe.. :D
My baby cousin stays with me this two days, but he is already back at home now.
He gets naughtier and naughtier every time I see him but I still love him that much.
He looks like a monk or a gangster?

I work for this Comiworld event that is held in Cineleisure.
The job is quite easy actually because there are not much people going to this event.
What I do is just giving people brochures and leaflets and stay at some game stalls.
Nothing much to do, and I’m actually quite free. Hehe..

Some pictures..

Angel and Devil.

Me, Bomberman (a friend of mine), and Shaun.

Me and Bomberman

Shaun and me.

Big Flintstone Shaun. Haha..

Group picture..

Naughty Bomberman. He is so cute..

Last but not least,
Look at my kesian leg, got scratch by a don’t know what its name.

And both our salary add together is Rm600++.. Muahaha, for only three days.
I’m going to shop real soon, and oh ya, I finish my finals and my holiday is here. :)

I’ll be working at Cineleisure for some comic event this Saturday till Monday and I have 2 final papers on Tuesday. Damn bad timing but good pay, so no choice. I’m like so damn broke now.
I’ll be working with Shaun too, but not the same floor.

The one in charge is a friend of mine and he asked me to join the ambassador so that he will have enough contestant. Just go up the stage pose pose and then answer something and thats it I guess. If I lose I got Rm50, If I win then got 500 game points and some cash voucher thingy.
At first, I thought lose is better because I can have cash but he told me the prizes is better.
The 500 game point is equal to Rm500. If I can sell it, my pocket will have few hundreds extra.

I talk so much for what? For you all to vote me so I can have extra few hundred.
I need money, I really do. I know it takes a little time to sign up and stuff but just please do me this favor. I know that I’m not pretty and I don’t care, I want money.
Please please please please please please vote for me. I will be so grateful for that vote you give me.
*puppy eyes big big with tears*

This is the forum link. Just press, very easy. :)

I saw this little red car when heading to a place near HELP to collect his passport.
I don’t know what car this is, but it looks quite a lot like a mini cooper.
It looks so cute with that backdoor. Shaun say it looks like an ice-cream car.
How I wish I have it.

Isn’t it cute? I bought this heart shape biscuit earing at Taman Connaught’s Pasar Malam.
It really looks a lot like a real biscuit and best of all, it is cheap, only Rm4.
I love it, love it, love it. :)