I’ll be going off for 3 days and 2 nights to a place I don’t wanna disclose.
I’m not going with family members, nor friends I usually hang out with.
I’m not sure how many people know where I’ll be…
Well, this is an opportunity for me to clear my mind a little and stay away from people.
Will be back on Sunday noon I guess.

Things always get so complicated, I wonder why.
Or is it me that is so complicated?
My life is messed up once again, how funny it is.
I’m starting to get very tired again.
If every night I go emo like this, I think I’ll die from the emo-ness.. -.-

Who am I to blame?
Me? You? Him? Her? Mr.God? My dog, perhaps?
I shall blame myself for my stupidity.
Good Night. Pray for me people, that I’ll be safe and sound.

It seems as though there is so much on my mind that I wish to say but words just couldn’t come out. As time passes each day, I feel lonelier and lonelier. I’ve been going out so much till late at night, sometimes till 3am, and even till 5am just to avoid being alone at home. I just dislike that feeling so much.
Every night when I reach home I go online, sitting in front of the computer, staring at the screen, feeling so lonely, and then I start to emo. Can I not have this kind of feeling cause it sucks so bad. All I can do is hang around till I’m dead tired and go back home and sleep straight away.

I am waiting for someone to come to my life, but I don’t know who he is. Please come faster because I really couldn’t stand the feeling of lonely any longer. I’m dependent or whatever shit but then this is me.

Its 29th of February, the date where we have every four years. It seems as though I’m in Form 4 yesterday. Time really flies, sigh. I don’t know what I am feeling right now neither do I know how to put it in words. Always, when I realise I’m no longer that girl in secondary school, it somehow makes me moody. Its not that I am getting old or what, its just that I enjoy myself at that time. Each day I find it more and more difficult to live happily. Sometimes I just find it so meaningless. Why am I even here? I am always moody when I am alone, especially night. I kinda hate the fact that I am always so moody and emo but I just cant help. Some of those friends are really getting more and more ……….. not weird, just out of mind. Why can’t things just go normal. Why things always have to be so difficult? Sigh, sometimes I really do feel tired.