me: oh hie there!

me: er… hie…

me: how are you feeling?

me: shitty!

me: do you think you’ll get crazy someday because you get upset over small issues or worst still, over nothing at all?

me: mm hmm.. *nods head* how?

me: ask yourself how.

me: that’s why i’m asking you how!

me: right! why do you get upset over little issues?

me: because i care? yes, i do care.

me: then why aren’t you telling people or to whom it may concern that you’re feeling upset over those issues?

me: because i dare not. i’m afraid you see..

me: afraid? of what?

me: afraid of shit happening? because when i keep silent, shit wont happen.

me: this isn’t you right?

me: the new me perhaps.

me: new you? since when?

me: hah! i don’t even know since when man. shocked you? because it shocked me somehow..

me: oh boy, yes it really shocked me.

me: changed without myself even realising.

me: from what to what?

me: from someone who must explain herself and letting people know her feelings/thoughts to someone who keep quiet even when stuff upset her. .. to someone who just follow, go along with it and say okay okay even when its not okay.

me: why?

me: i’m afraid, thats why.

me: afraid again?? of what?? gosh..

me: of everything. every single thing! afraid of history repeating itself, afraid of hearing any harsh words from people i love or whatsoever.

me: wow! vulnerable.

me: yeah.. one minute i laugh, the other minute i feel like shit.. then i laugh again.. its k-r-a-z-y!

me: do you need a psychologist?

me: wtf?! no!!

me: sure?

me: hmm… perhaps i do..

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如果我不是我 其实会怎么样?
有沒有人要做周碧琪?
我真的很累!

don’t worry! i’m still sane afterall.. .
hur hur, it took almost one hour for me to write these chinese words..
but i’m proud cause i can build sentences.. *flips hair* wtf!!