I want to blog. Blog about my 21st birthday party but my cable is downstairs and its late now, I’ve got not much energy left in me.

I just wanted to blog. To write something.

Well well, I wonder how long it takes for me to let go the grudges completely.
It is indeed kind of annoying when every time I thought I’m over this shit , I actually am not.
Days later when I accidentally come across things related to you, I feel the pain all over again.
Not to say pain but that very uneasy feeling ,you know.

Deep down, I really really don’t want to be angry at you and at the whole incident.
Because I do like you. Whether as a friend or not, I like this person. This person is you.
Argh. I just don’t know how to describe the whole situation, the exact feeling I’m having.

Sigh, but I remember what harsh word you once said.
You really put me in such a dilemma situation.
Forgive and forget? I’m not sure if I can.

I do still think of you. I miss you.